Wow May 22nd Really?

I’m amazed that I haven’t written in my blog since May 22nd. Really? 

So much for my at least once a month schedule. I can give you all sorts of reasons for my absence but what are reasons anyway? Nothing but dressed up excuses. So with no excuses no ‘reasons’ I’m here saying hello again.


What I do know is that when you make big plans, ultimately things will get in the way. No I haven’t given up. No I’ve not stopped writing. No I’ve not been abducted by aliens. Nothing like that.

Work, life all the usual stuff. But see we all have those things. Everyone works in one capacity or another, we have all life issues that interrupt our best layed plans. So I’m here.  You’re stuck with me!

So, it is once again time for #Pitchwars on Twitter and it comes during a time that I have those ‘life issues’ that are eating up my time like Pacman on dots.

With that said there are 70+ mentors that I must weed through to find who is best for my story. I only get to chose 4!


Which in itself is a daunting task! I narrowed the list to 20ish. Then still need to determine which mentor would like my story.

If you’re not familar with Pitchwars it is an opportunity for me to work with a published author/editor for two months to make my story shine. Then in November agents take a look at the finished product. The object overall idea is to walk away with an agent.


I have until the 18th to do the following.

  1. Chose 4 mentors from the lost list of 70
  2. Be certain of the genre for my story (so much conflicting possibilities)
  3. Polish and edit the last chapters (and the front)
  4. Dodge everything life throws my way.

I can do this 🙂




What I’ve Learned

Today I woke up feeling that no matter how much I think I know or understand, it isn’t enough

I don’t mean that I’m Sheldon and already know everything, but it’s funny how the world opens doors for you showing you that although you may know much, you still have a lot to learn.

Last year my family was wrecked by loss. We had a difficult year to say the least and it took me a while to realize that all we suffered within a short amount of time effected every part of me and changed me.  I found that I was more afraid, I worried more, and I couldn’t pull things together despite my best efforts. It not only effected me mentally but physically. Stress can do things to the body that are still haunting me to this day.

Yesterday, however I saw the small piece of the world around me and how much I have allowed decay to set in by this change.

Recently though, my family has  reason to celebrate.  Part of my family has moved closer to us and I now have big reasons to find the person I used to be. One that isn’t scared all the time. One that would take the time to learn as much as I could about the world around me and one that took in every single second of life and loved it, instead of dreading what may come next.

I will never be the person I once was. Too much has changed and while I am struggling to get myself put back together, I am discovering a whole new person and seeing how much I have missed. For the first time I am excited to meet her.

I have begun querying agents again in hopes that someone will love my story as much as me. Wanting an agent to see, even though I am still learning. I really do have a great story that I want to share with the world.

The first query I sent out yesterday came back almost immediately and was a little harsh (getting used to that). That’s okay.  I am learning that rejection is the biggest part of publishing.

But then something amazing happened.

I research every agent before I send a query to them. What they are looking for, their blog if they have one. Because to me it isn’t about ‘just’ finding an agent. It is about finding the right agent.

This agent’s blog made be giddy. I loved her straight talk and what she wants in a story. She stuck to me and now I know I want her! So I sent my query and now I wait.

I do know that agents research the writers they are interested in and if by chance she reads my long rant today she will know I am talking about her.

Writers who live in the query trenches or slush pile are snowflakes. Each one of us unique. But that does not make us special. If one snowflake falls nothing really happens, no matter how special. I don’t really want to be a snowflake. I want to be the entire storm.

Waiting is the hardest part

There are times in everyone’s life where they are waiting for something. News of a job, news of a loved one, or even just for the water to boil. Waiting is part of life.

Sometimes the waiting makes you oblivious to things going on around you like this poor guy.

But no matter what you are waiting for, you have to remember that life goes on all around.


Sometimes there are so many things floating around unresolved that it makes me very cranky. Much like I am today. I really never realized it but I need closure on things. Too many things left opened to me is a mad, mad world.

I think I have always known this. One reason I was never really very good at watching Soap Operas. There isn’t an ending.

So right now I have manuscripts out, personal job issues, family moving to town and trying to find them a place to live. Rearranging several things in life in general and then of course waiting on issues with my day job of real estate.

I have so many things in limbo that need to come to completion before I can move forward with the next. It causes me to literally go on lock down. Leaving me unsure of the next move I need to make.

Then let’s add even more (now this isn’t a life issue but it is incomplete) I feel now I have bonded with Sheldon Cooper (So I might actually be going insane). I picked a new show on Netflix to watch called Alpha’s. Decent show. It ended without ending. A cliffhanger ending then a show cancellation. The following is the perfect example of me.

I realize the hardest part of writing is waiting for people to respond. There is no such thing in this industry as instant gratification. There is only waiting. The old saying “No news is good news.” I have learned in the publishing world that does not necessarily hold true.

So I am attempting to distract myself from the many things that are circling the tower in my life at the moment. I am ready to grab one, figure out how to fix it and then resolve it. But alas, when you are waiting on other people and praying for something good to happen then you had best learn patience.

Especially in the publishing world.